Sunday, August 19, 2007
I want a little something more
Don't want the middle or the one before
I don't desire a complicated past
I want a love that will last
A Love that will Last by Renee Olstead
This song is one of my all time favorite romantic songs and God brought it to my mind today. Two of my close friends from high school were married last Saturday (August 11th) and they had a beautiful wedding. Mind you, I set them up in high school :-) I also have two close friends who recently got engaged and I couldn't be happier for them.
Why tell you all this? To share what I've been through and how this song brought revelation to me.
In my 19 1/2 years of being alive I have only ever had 1 boyfriend. I was about 17 years old and the relationship only lasted about 2 months. So, I've never been one to jump in and out of relationships. I've guarded my heart to the best of my ability and have waiting for the right person to come into my life.
Well, when my friends (as you know by now are Steven and Emily) announced their engagement about a month or so ago, I cried... tears of joy and also of self pity (yes, I admit it). I was jealous as heck. I kept asking God "Why?", "What did I do wrong?", "Why them and not me?". I kept telling God that I hadn't been one to throw myself at every available guy, when I could have. I said "God, I've been a good girl... so why haven't you brought the right one to me?"
God said, "Yeah, you've been a good girl... but it's not your time, it's Steven and Emily's time." Oh yes, the word I dislike the most, WAIT. God showed me that the reason they are engaged isn't because they've reached a certain level or made it to a point in life that I hadn't, it is simply Their Time.
I have chosen to wait on the Lord on this issue because He knows me better than I know myself. Like the song says, I don't want a complicated past... I just want a love that will last. And I know, that love is definitely worth waiting for.
Saturday, August 11, 2007
This song is called Everything by Lifehouse. Everytime I hear this song, I can't help but cry. Because I put myself in the place of singing these lyrics to God about my relationship with Him. I have posted a video that flashes the lyrics and plays the song.. I hope you can take 6 minutes out of your day and let this song touch you the way it always does for me.
Friday, August 10, 2007
FYI: This doesn't contain movie spoilers.. I'm not that mean ;-)
Tonight, I went with my sister and a couple of friends to see The Bourne Ultimatum. The only thing I can say is WOW! That was the most amazing action movie I've seen in my entire life! From the time it starts, it is non-stop action.
So as I'm sitting on the edge of my seat (literally) all I can think is "oh dear lord, this movie needs to end so my blood pressure and heart rate can return to normal" haha but it was fantastic!
If you liked the Bourne Identity and the Bourne Supremacy, I guarantee you will LOVE (yes love) the Bourne Ultimatum. And once you've seen it you too will agree that the Ultimatum was better than the first 2.
Purpose of this post? HAH there is no purpose to this one. I'm still coming down from my adrenalin rush ;-)
"I hope you enjoy your egg whites"
Thursday, August 2, 2007
I realized, lately, how routine my life has become. It's quite hilarious, actually. I noticed this yesterday, how ever scene throughout the day was like desa vu. Here's my typical day... EVERYDAY
7:00am: Wake up to country music, hit snooze
7:09am: Alarm goes off again, hit snooze
7:18am: Alarm goes off again, quickly ponders getting up, hit snooze
7:27am: Alarm goes off again, finally force myself out of bed
8:35am: Realize I'm running late and shouldn't have taken the time to shave my legs that morning
8:50am: Pull out of the driveway, and pass by an old couple picking up garbage.. Wave and Smile
9:05: Begin tutoring
10:10: End tutoring
10:30: Arrive at our apartment complex as the right side of my car windows get nailed by a sprinkler
AND IT GOES ON AND ON!
Literally, that is how every morning has been for the entire summer (same events at the same times). I find it comical; how I've gotten into such a routine that I can predict how every morning is going to turn out. And that every time I get home from tutoring, my car window WILL get hit by the same sprinkler.
So what is God trying to say? Don't let life become routine! Don't let it just slip past you by being stuck in the same situations every day. Allow God to come in and change your view, change your life, change your driving route ;-)...
I think, more than anything, this blog is for me. God had me write this to show me that my life doesn't have to be dull. That He can come in and add so much more if I allow the change to happen.
So God, I give you freedom into my life, to change what needs to be changed. Give me the strength and perseverance to keep going when I want to quit. You know what I need.